What's A Hiatus?!

It has been 6.5 months since I have blogged. Though I have been away from my site I have by no means been away from life itself in fact so much has happened it's been quite the opposite! Ezra started walking around the end of July but preferred crawling for another month and if he wanted to walk he cruised, or walked across small gaps. He says a ton of words! He eats big people food all on his own!I stopped working with my client Kim right before school started. I'm at CSUCI now an have decided to continue my plan to double major only I picked a specialty neuroscience with an emphasis in genetics, and my second major psych, my minor social business which will do nothing but help me when it comes time to open my wellness center. I have about a year and a half till I graduate with my BS/BA and my first med school pick is UCSD, my second is a tie between UCLA and USC my third is UAPhoenix my fourth is UCBerkley after that everything is free for all, up the west coast first, then the east coast, my last choices are TX and ID all other center states and Midwest states aren't going to happen I promised Mike I wouldn't apply to any of those states. And I plan to go for surgeon.School has been difficult juggling a toddler, a home, and school. Like usual a new school mean financial aid takes forever and a day. I didn't get it till the end of September and I finally got my books all but one which is in postal limbo. I was sick for a week and then Ez got sick an was sick on and off so I missed a bunch of classes so I'm behind. I decided earlier this week to drop 2 classes to preserve my resume and GPA. So I can now stop stressing!


      

        Ezra turned one in September and I am so proud of him, he has made leaps and bounds beyond what any Dr ever imagined him to be at an embryo. Mike being home 24/7 is very helpful, he is the best Daddy I have ever seen, I am blown away by his compassion and patience with Ezra. When I see Mike with Ezra it reminds me of Gods love. I have never ever physically seen with my own eyes a love like this. It's mind blowing. We plan on trying for our next bundle next summer. I really don't want to be crazy pregnant in the hot months, plus I want the age difference to be about a two and a half years like my brother and I. It sounds crazy after all I went through to get Ez, to want another one, heck another two! But honestly lately I've had baby fever, when I look back at Ez new baby pictures my heart kind of aches. He is growing so fast! Today in my Human Sexual Behavior class my teacher showed a video of multiple in utero scans from conception up to child birth and they added some artistic animation to it with classical music and I was crying. 

Its hard to deny a creator after watching that video. My uterus was screaming at me to let it help create life again. It is all odd how that happens. Anyway I'm finally dropping all this baby/bad medication weight. It's a good thing too with the class of 2001 high school reunion coming up in November. I'm starting to feel like myself again and even look like me again!

His first Lolli!

My boy has a sense of humor! We push our faces against the glass!

Me, my sister in law Angi, and our good friend Caitlin.

Daddy, Ez and Cousin Paislie!

My most recent Tat on my left shoulder, I want Fearless on my right!

Me on my way to school this week, Im finally lookin' like me again.

We got Ez a tent and tunnel for his birthday! He loves it!

My Disney boy!

I took this today, too bad my phone went out of focus.

~Mandi

Detox...

Well a lot is going on in my life. I can't really delegate my personal preferences and to micromanage everything takes it's toll. So I'm down grading, doing everything I can to lower my bills to relieve financial stress, I'm cleaning my house to relieve the burden of clutter and the feeling of over responsibility, I am cutting out the relationships in my life that aren't going anywhere. If I am not being blessed by the relationship and the person I'm engaged with isn't being blessed by me then there is no need to struggle investing time that is going nowhere. Honestly I can go without being blessed as long as the other person is, however if I receive a majority of negativity from the person in return, I'm DONE. I don't care who these people are to me in regard to social circle or blood lines, I don't care if I've known them 30 years or 5 minutes, I don't have the stamina or time to invest a well balanced teachable attitude to receive word that someone thinks I'm selfish, untrustworthy, unstable, or to be their punching bag. My thoughts are "well then stop lying to yourself, I'll make it easy for you, good bye" I don't have the time, I don't have what it take to be a good mom if I'm correcting others actions, explaining myself, or begging for people to understand me when I'm pretty easy to read, I say things as they are, my heart is on my sleeve and I try my damnedest to eliminate grey areas in my personality.

I am Detoxing my emotional Mind, as I come into this weight loss journey. I am fine tuning my thoughts and responses and narrowing in on time and place type stuff. There is a time and a place to be angry, to be in awe, to be fed up, to not put up with shit. Some things are over due! And other things I have jumped the gun, I can balance old compassionate Mandi with recent hard nosed go screw yourself Mandi. I don't like what I've become and I miss the old me however the old me rarely snapped, was emotional and a doormat, the recent me makes it impossible to bend and is so logical God can't do much with her... The New me is much different, I'm going to balance it all out for my own well being and that of those that are around me. I want to say what I mean and do what I say.

I've started this journey to the new me a while ago I've weeded out the people in my life that are toxic and I'm not looking back. Not to say there isn't room for forgiveness because I have forgiven everyone of them and if they become enlightened at some point in their lives and decide they want a healthy relationship I am here with open arms, but until then I'm done dancing everyone else's dance. God has bigger plans for my life!

I can't wait to start losing weight and creating a healthy whole lifestyle for myself so I can be more of a blessing to my family!

Mike and Ezra are great I love them so much and Ezra is amazing he is so smart and loving I am so thankful God blessed us with him! He is adorable. He says Kitty, MaMa, DaDa and Eww. Kitty and Eww seem to have more of a cognitive attachment to them than the others but it is exciting nonetheless. He is soooo big 98th percentile for height, and 75th for weight. He is almost 6.5 months old an he is in 9-12 month clothes.

~Mandi

Its Been A Cool Minute...

       I really don't even know where to start. This last Sunday I tuned 29 that is an interesting feeling, also Ezra turned 6 months. He is so big and so smart, Mike and I cant imagine our lives with out him!
This semester I couldn't afford School, so for the first time in 5 year I have time off and let me tell you... I feel a little empty and frazzled. "STUDENT" has become my identity and I miss it. I will go back this fall in August 2012. Mike was laid off in November and when we saw how little unemployment was we decided and sad as I would be, I needed to go back to work because I can work a couple days a week and make more money than Mike did working 5-6 days a week. I am back working with my client Kim and Though it is 5-6 days every two weeks I feel like I miss so much of Ezra.
      Lately I have been feeling really really cramped in our tiny little duplex, so as much as I hate moving I am looking at houses close to the beach for under $2000 so our little family can have breathing room and room to expand. We want to be trying for another baby by the end of the year.  Having Mike home 24/7 has been very trying on our relationship. I had to take a 3 day trip to Lancaster this last weekend because someone was gonna be going down! Ha ha! 
        Starting April 1st 2012 Myself and 2 friends are starting a weight loss journey and our goal is to be at a significant weight and looking hot by our 10 year HS reunion in September. Im very excited about it. I hope to run the LA marathon next year if Im not pregnant, this year was a no go, it turns out I had a bad case of postpartum depression. I am into month 2 of my medication that takes almost 3 months to be fully effective. So far I feel great and I have lost some weight. But I feel like I have the strength to function and try now which is great! very much old Mandi!

Any way Im at work I need to wrap this up!

 Please Follow Me on my Journey to health and Hottness! At our blog which is also kind of a one stop shop delving into different diets, work out routines, and ways to lose weight, you can get honest opinions and links there!
fatflab2phatphab.blogspot.com

Thank You Everyone
~Mandi

Ps. Photos to come!

New Journey...

Sorry everyone it has been forever since I have written anything, my next post I will get everyone up to speed. For now I am promoting a Lifestyle blog I have started with 2 other friends from jr high/highschool. It is a weight lose journey I would like you to follow! Though I will most likely discuss it on here as well I think the other Blog will be totally fun and informative from the perspective of 3 individuals! Joins us on this journey! Click on the below link!
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Thanks everyone you are awesome and always encouraging!
~Mandi

Getting to know you.....

      I have been planning to do this for a while now but every time I sit down to Blog I go on and on about myself! Im very interested in who everyone is that views my blog! Who are you, how did you hear about me, find me, stumble on to me?
   There are a some who I know directly who love me and care about what Im up to. And others indirectly and their motives are clear as well, stalking me for some sort of ammunition or scare tactic! All you jealous hasbeens, petty people I don't want in my life, and collection agencies aka: FIRESIDE BANK!  I thought Fireside went under with all the other crappy banks, I didn't find it necessary to continue my deferring of people going through that bank because it was supposedly not an available option due to their crappy service, shiesty ways and their inability to COLLECT! Ha ha but thank you for getting paid your 10% above minimum wage to read my blog what a good way to work, know I returned my vehicle 6 years ago because I wanted nothing to do with you people and so it will stay that way. I already have 2 new vehicles which isn't hard to do with crappy credit in this economy (they're like join the club but we need to sell a car!) I live on the beach in a cute little house and I have a wonderful family, no one can take that away from me! Also I worked in collections for a time, if I were your boss Id fire you with your lies and half ass techniques they don't work... Im a dead end Tom, Tim, Ted what ever your name is... all of your numbers will be blocked soon anyway!

   To every one else who I don't know Ive been tracking you! Im amazed every day there is a new potential friend welcoming me into their home! Here are the numbers...

U.S....2063
ROMANIA...58
GERMANY...40
RUSSIA...31
MALAYSIA...27
U.K....23
LATVIA...16
CHINA...15
INDIA...12
SWEDEN...11
IRELAND...11
ITALY...5
AUSTRALIA...4
CANADA...2

    I know for a while there Romania and Malaysia were on there once a day for up to a week after every post I had! It was/is very exciting for me! I would love to hear from you! Comment on this post or email me Im dying to know who you are and why you read my posts. What do you get out of it, what do you want to see more of? Please let me know! I wish the US numbers were broken down to the states as well it would be interesting to me to know where every one is from!

     Thank you so much for Following me! Until next time!

~Mandi

Things to do... wah ditty, ditty dum, ditty dooo...

   I have only a few minutes to type this because Ezra is stirring from his 3 hour nap! Should have started it when he first went down! 
   Christmas is in the air, and so is the end of my school semester and the spring cleaning/organizing I missed while bed ridden last spring! 
   School Is nuts as it is at the end of every semester because I procrastinate never buy my books anymore (unless it's a language or science class) I finally set up my test dates I have two weeks of a 2 finals, a midterm, a report, and a huge project! Yes, this is how I roll every semester since 2 years back! No books no homework and barley showing up to class, this semester because of the pregnancy and recovery! My Social Analysis class I have to copy the book at the library and I haven't even started reading or looking at the teachers notes! I have a mid term (chap 1-6) next friday and the final the following friday (chap 7-12) and somewhere in there a huge project due! Plus a final in Ceramics, a report and like 6 things to glaze and fire! Come next semester I need to break my cycle and buckle down, actually study and pay attention, buy the books and read them, because I can't always plan on my logic and last minute abilities. One day it'll bite me in the butt! I've made a habit, a system out of it and I need to go back to the study habits I had the first couple years of school, Plus if I want to be a doctor I need to know, understand, and love that crap! Keep the natural smarts in the back pocket for a rainy day! I've decided it's a good new years resolution!
   Christmas this year is something we are really looking forward to! Having a child really makes all the difference! We have made sure to budget this year which we try to do every year but this year is a must and Im positive it will still be more than we should be spending but I don't care and I cant wait! 
   Being off for Christmas break I cant wait to clean and organize which means finishing Ezra's room, painting the bathroom and organizing the kitchen and all the new baby things! I plan to extent our counter space in the kitchen as well as adding several drawers so we have plenty of storage space! Also we were given a huge trunk box thing used as a coffee table, it sits in my brothers storage unit waiting for the green light to come to our home! Its just so big I don't want to lose floor space in our tiny house even though it can house all kinds of blankets and bedding, freeing up hall closet space... what a dilemma! 


    I still haven't started training for this marathon and I think I bit off more than I can chew, it may also just be too soon! Maybe I should just run for fitness and pleasure and if Im not pregnant 2013 Ill run that one... We shall see I can also look into a bunch of 5K events as well! We shall see! As far as getting fit that is a must so hopefully I am by my Birthday which is the actual goal!


   Today Ezra is 11 weeks old It's amazing how fast things go by! I love him so much! Many Milestones are taking place, he is the bubble blowing King, he grabs a lot more these days, responds to sounds and actually looks in the direction from which they came, he knows his name, still loves to dance, carries on conversations with us in his baby babble! We added the DHA & Probiotic baby cereal to his diet twice a day to bulk up his meals I add organic fruit/veggie mix puree to it so its kinda like a smoothie and he drinks it down! He had a cold all last week whether he got it 3rd hand from Mikes employees or Paislie is a toss up. It would make more sense coming from Paise because he was sick exactly 3 days after said cousin love and Paise was sick. Oh well at least it wasn't the flu and thank God he has his shots! The last doctors appointment he went to he was 12pounds, 24", and his head was 16" that is 95th percentile for height, 50th for weight and 55th for head! He is a big boy!

Thanksgiving Ezra planking on the Dinner table!

My sister inlaw and I messing around in my grams kitchen!

bath time!

Our first big walk almost 6 miles!

   I also started coupon clipping it is so organized my OCD is showing! I cant wait to have enough coupons to where we are really saving!

  

~Mandi

The Wallick Family Update

      So its been a while! Today Ezra is 2 months and 1 week! I cant believe how fast he is growing it excites me and makes me sad! Mike went back to work on November 9th which was a good thing and a little bit upsetting, both myself and Ezra miss him. It is evident Ez knows the difference after having 2 parents in his face 24/7 to only one for most of the time!
      Ezra has gone through 3 growth spurts 2 of which threw the whole house off, to the point where his sleep patterns and my milk supply have been effected. I have been so tired especially since mike has gone back to work we have begun to add formula to my milk at night before bed to bulk it up so he sleeps longer, plus me going back to school 2 nights a week we were all over the map and now My milk supply is low and that causes crazy baby and more frequent feedings and more formula substituting which I am not a fan of, period! Yesterday was Mikes day off and Ezra refuses to sleep like he will miss out on the action or something but he seems to want that time with Mike, However it throws him off for a day or two, mix that with the lack of milk and me trying to re-implement our schedule... it is mayhem! My first line of action FENUGREEK stimulates milk supply exponentially! Which means more to feed and pump and store and more calories burned (because we know that is a huge must!) Also a nice little side effect it makes your sweat, urine and sometime poo smell like maple syrup same with Ezra he will also sport a little Ihop aroma as well! Totally down to smell sweet since the hormones from having the baby have made me get this funk smell going on, even straight out of the shower, not a joy of motherhood, needn't I say! Another down side to the sporadic breast feeding and sleep habits... A period, yes it has been exactly a year since I have had one, super disappointed but the silver lining... I will have a better idea of when Im pregnant again!
      Haven't even begun to work out yet, Im way disappointed in myself but I have taken into consideration that I have a new baby and well until I get a jogger stroller I have to do it when Mike is home. I plan to borrow one from a friend but that will probably not happen for a couple more days anyway with thanksgiving and menses all taking place!

A few fun Facts:
* Ez is literally growing about a half an inch a week!
* He is in 3-6 month clothes now
* He had his shots at 6 weeks and the flu vaccination made him sick for 2 days.
* He holds his head up, which started about 6.5 weeks
* He still loves to dance
* He was in the 98th percentile for his height, 55th for weight to height, and 40th for his head @6 weeks    
   Who knows how nuts it is now?!
* He was dedicated to God on Oct 30th @6 weeks old
* He laughs ALL the time, at least when he isn't fussing through a growth spurt or an off day!
* He now mimics whistle lips, waving, sticking out your tongue, eye brows up and down, and the sound
   "oooh"
* He laughs a lot
* He has found his syllables "Ma" and "Ggg" (ggg as in "g"rapes)

Dedication day!

In other news:
   Almost done with school this semester 4 weeks left. I have a presentation and two tests in one class that I haven't even opened the book for yet, wish me luck on that one. And a few more projects due in ceramics due on Dec 2nd, I am doing very well in ceramics and in talking to my teacher I have decided to do custom pottery pieces and sell them, that will come in handy along with my hair jobs and photography company!
   Mike and I got a new truck so now we have 2 working vehicles I am giving my other car to my brother and using it as a tax write off!
   As of January 1st I will be a university girl continuing Pre-med goals, psychology and sociology.
   This up coming year Mike and I decided to go on a missions trip to Costa Rica in July. We will be fundraising and looking for sponsors. We started a fund that anyone can donate to via credit card, debit card or pay pal so if any one is interested in supporting out cause check out the link! I will be talking more and more about it as the trip gets closer.
CLICK ON THIS LINK...
http://apps.facebook.com/fundrazr/activity/a73ffe2bf532410c9cb69523d2a0ff45?psid=42cfb0c5b1834b75866b05ec3244f9d1

OR IF THAT DOESNT WORK TRY THIS ONE...
http://goo.gl/WwSyq

The How It Is Alert: A Means To An End:::
    I have a Cyber-Stalker I am actually quite flattered that this individual has allowed me to invade her thoughts and ruin her relationships without me even lifting a finger, batting an eye, or caring about her, who she is or what she stands for. It's interesting to be given such authority in ones life without being asked or even involved. Fantasy emotions conjured up out of nothing, maybe jealousy, or an obvious personality disorder. But know this, everything I post be it on my blog or on Facebook anything public forum is all PUBLIC there is nothing that hasn't been heard, read, seen by others on my sites that I have posted because I have nothing to hide. I will NOT be censored or walk on eggshells to please people. I say it how it is and some people can't handle that, but it is in No way my problem or the problem of anyone with whom I have relationship, so stop bothering others by twisting and manipulating.  If there is something you would like to say instead of stirring the pot and attempting to cause dissension in my happy little life feel free to email me and Ill call you Im willing to have a grown up conversation over the phone. Otherwise put on your big girl panties and quit sending my child things! You are spending money to warm the homeless. Im setting BOUNDARIES for myself and my family. PLEASE BE RESPECTFUL AND ADHERE TO THEM.  You are the only one who lets what I say cause you to show your true ugly colors, acting in this unhealthy hateful manner, its petty and predictable.  I don't have time to Hate people who hate me because Im too busy loving people who love me! I am done with you and this topic as is the rest of the world according to you. Thank you and once again I pray you get out of life whatever it is you are searching for.

TO EVERYONE ELSE WHO ACTIVELY FOLLOWS AND SUPPORTS ME THANK YOU ALL THE WAY AROUND THE WORLD IT MAKES ME HAPPY TO KNOW MY WORDS FLOW IN TO YOUR HOMES!

~Mandi